My dad is in the hospital today. I live far from my family so the only thing I can do today is to anxiously wait. Waiting is horrible. For anyone who has had someone you love become ill, you probably know what I mean.
For some, attempting a Lindsey Vonn visualization exercise helps the time go by. That’s when you start visualizing a doctor telling your loved one that he will be fine, and to take 2 aspirins and go home.
For others, you may begin to remember moments in time with your loved one. As the movie reel plays in your mind, your anxiety may soon turn bittersweet.
- You begin to feel bad about being such a bratty kid when you were young and then you realize you have two bratty kids (at times) of your own and perhaps that’s just the way kids are.
- And you see how hard it is to raise a family while working and you remind yourself to thank your dad for just being him.
- And you see how scary the world can be and you finally understand why your dad would go out looking for you if you were not home before dark and you add this to your list of thank you’s.
- And then you start to feel bad about dating someone 4 years older than you when you were 16 and you silently thank God that you have boys .
- And then you begin to wonder how on earth your father was able to handle you moving 3,000 miles away when you were 22 and realize that your kids will probably do the same.
- And then you wonder how your father reacted when he learned that you had moved into your San Francisco apartment with 3 strange boys and you think perhaps your mom never told him.
- And you get a little sad remembering when you had to leave Seattle after your parents relocated there and you wonder if your dad has ever really forgiven you.
- And, as you wait by the phone, you question why you have to live so far away and then realize that it is just how things were meant to be.
And then, after speaking with him on the phone, you hang up and wonder if you will handle aging and being sick as gracefully as he does.
And for that, you realize, you will just have to wait and see.
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